This Is What Intuition Feels Like
I think I was 15 when I first misinterpreted intuition. I was wondering if a boy liked me and I read this advice:
If you feel that he likes you, then your intuition is probably right.
I did feel like he likes me, so I went ahead and admitted my feelings. I thought he was just shy, you know.
He said something about us being friends, and a week later, he started going out with one of my friends.
The funny thing is, I wasn’t at all surprised by his response.
Why did I rush to admit anything?
Did my intuition purposely deceit me?
I forgave it that little glitch, and since then, I tried to rely on it time and time again: on choosing a college major, on choosing jobs, on choosing men, on making big and small decisions.
Sometimes it helped me, sometimes it failed me, and I couldn’t figure out what the problem was.
Why was my gut feeling so unreliable?
It wasn’t until I turned thirty that I finally saw a trend. I noticed how I felt before making the right decision and before making the wrong one. I started “predicting” the future and acting accordingly.
Experience has something to do with it, for sure. Most online articles on intuition will tell you that it’s the only way to build up your intuition. Of course, I know myself and the world better now than I did when I was 15.
But I believe it’s more than experience. There are a lot of grown-a** people out there who still can’t figure out what their intuition is trying to tell them.
What matters is learning how to recognize the difference between intuition and the two feelings that are inevitable when you’re about to make a decision: hope and fear.
You hope things will turn out a certain way, and you fear things will turn out a certain way.
These two emotions are always there. One of them is usually stronger, but they’re both always there.
And they’re not intuition.