It’s Okay If You’re Not Ready For Your Amazing Future.
Just be where you are.
You haven’t completely lost control over your life until you realize you don’t even have your nights anymore.
It’s what happens with two small children.
When I read creativity advice that tells me to give my mind an unsolvable problem right before I go to sleep, and then my subconscious will solve it, I think, great. But I can’t do that.
First of all, I don’t go to sleep. I pass out. I pass out either on the bed, while pushing the baby’s swing; or on the couch, while I’m trying to have but a moment of quality time with my husband; or in the hallway between both.
Second of all, I don’t sleep. I nap as long as my baby will allow me.
Recently, I’ve been thinking about doing something I shouldn’t do — moving my baby in the kids’ room to sleep with his brother.
My pediatrician told me I should wait until the big brother turns 3. Before that, he’s still too young, and there’s the possibility that he hurts the baby unintentionally.
I don’t want to wait: because I know my toddler is already smart enough, and I know he sleeps well, and I know they won’t really be alone together awake.