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Is It Normal to Always Want More Out of Life?
Keep what’s great about ambition and deal with the problems.
I’m painfully ambitious.
It’s one of my greatest qualities because it’s helped me achieve goals my peers often thought impossible.
But it’s also one of my greatest pains. I keep moving countries, cities, and apartments, always looking for the next amazing thing. I keep changing jobs, though not actual jobs, but rather different approaches to a writing career.
In short, I always want more and actively look for it.
But as I’m growing older, it’s becoming increasingly difficult to do so. I have a family now and a mortgage, and drastic changes and big dreams must have strong logical foundations, or they cannot be pursued.
In a way, I feel like I’ve distanced myself from who I really am to have a family and a little certainty.
But the other perspective is that I jump from one thing to the next because I have fears that keep me from committing to anything — location, career, relationship.
What if wanting more is a way to escape into a fantasy world where you live for and in your goals and dreams?